Wait its about my Weight!!!!

Well it seems that there is a common theme this week on blogger, weight loss/gain, and children. Well I am going to talk about my weight problem, I have always battled my weight. As a child my mother had to buy me Pretty Plus sized clothes from Sears, this is the equivalent of Husky sizes for girls. I have always been the overweight one in the family and I have all of these cousins who are curvy and beautiful. I really feel self conscience when around them. I mean these girls can wear anything off the store racks. I on the other hand have to shop in the womens department and no offense to my readers but in the womens department there is nothing cute and young. Well it is starting to reach out to your younger crowd. Men really have it great, weight is really not an issue unless they are morbidly obese and not able to move. Women are constantly shunned by society for being fat and/or ugly. When I was in High School, 9th grade I weighed over 200lbs. I look back and wonder why did my mother let me get to this point? Couldn't she have done something to stop me. When I was young she was slim and always exercising. But after 2 back to back pregnancies she ballooned and now those kids are 15 nd 17 and she is coming back down and looks real good. Well my 10th grade year I became interested in boys and got me a boyfriend, first mistake he told me that my hips were wider than your average girls so I started the weight loss plan from hell. I basically starved myself I was 122 pounds and my lowest I am 5'11" and looked deathly my mom threatned me with hospitalization if I did not start eating. Slowly I gained weight I think I stuck around 160 for a couple of years until baby number 1. I gained 60 pounds with this child and I think after his birth I gained 20 more, started working it off I got to 190 and married my current husband but I have constantly had to deny myself of so many things to keep my weight down. I hated eating out because I hated eating. Then came baby number 2 only gained 30 pounds with him but I ended up gaining like 30 more after he was born and here we are 3 year later and I am still trying to get the weight to come off. I am always self conscious of the way I look and I get moody when I start thinking of my weight. I joined weight watcher almost 2 years ago and I have succeeded and failed at the weight game. I have quit and rejoined many many times. Well here I am again, I have been doing the weight watchers thing again for 9 or so months and I have lost 22 pounds now. I have 30 more that I definatly want to lose just to put me under 200. Ahhh there you all know now I am a fat ass sitting on my computer all of the time. My biggest peeve is people that say, "I don't know why I am fat, I never eat." I always want to snap back and say, "Look you did not get that way just breathing." A fellow blogger is going to try and start some sort of weight loss weigh in on Tuesdays, her name is Lori. I am really looking foward to doing this with her and hopefully I will reach my goal before the Summer is out!!